Pieces of My Puzzle
March 2, 2011
Service to others is the rent you pay for your room here on earth. -Muhammad Ali
February 28, 2011
Corner Piece #1 continued: My Religion
My religious quest began, in my opinion, my Senior year of High School. I was raised in an active Mormon home. We were a typical large family with two wonderful parents. We experienced many difficult trials. Each time we pulled through and became closer as a family. Eventually though, all of us had to decide what we actually believed instead of what Mom and Dad believed. I had to decide what was important to me. I had friends of all denominations-Buddhist, Catholic, Christian, Mormon, Jehovah's Witness, Athiest, and one that didn't believe in organized religion but had a firm belief in God. I began watching them. Then I began asking questions. I needed to know what I believed. I decided to continue onward in how I was raised. I knew in my heart it was true. Through my observations however, I found all of my friends to be very respectable. I learned and am learning much from them and their religious beliefs. Through this, my testimony has become more deeply rooted and my friendships have become deeper and more meaningful as well.
These small experiences were then followed by a chapter of World Religion in my Senior English class. We studied some of the major religions of the World that were not commonly found in our sheltered little part of the Country. We learned of Taoism and Buddhism, as well as influential religious leaders such as Mohammed, Confucius, and Buddha. Again, I learned a deep respect for these religions and their followers as my beliefs were even more solidified.
I then got married and started my own family. My husband and I were so privileged to be able to go to Egypt together. Again I was exposed to yet another religion-Islam. Our eyes were opened to so many incredible people and beliefs of this faith!
A couple years ago my husband and I moved our very small family to Texas. We continued to grow and learn there but in different ways. Now that we believed, we were tested. When friends asked what our religious affiliations were and we answered, most times, one of the next questions were similar to this one, "Your religion has so many rules, don't you feel like they are always telling you what you can and can't do? I could never do that."
The first couple of times I was taken back but I thought for a long hard time about this question in it's various forms. Yes, it is true. There are many guidelines we choose follow. For example: the word of wisdom (no smoking or drinking), modesty, keeping the Sabbath day holy. These guidelines actually provide freedom. I know, it sounds incredibly weird but for me when I keep my body clean of the impurities of drugs and alcohol, I am actually free. I am not a slave to these addictive stimulants. When someone drinks so much they are drunk they are a slave to the alcohol they took into their bodies. Therefore doing irrational unthinkable things-drunk driving, rape, blind anger, violence to others, etc. So by keeping my body free of these things I am actually providing freedom for myself. This is something I've learned through incredibly difficult personal experiences.
We have had rather extensive dealings with a Methodist Church in Houston as well. As a whole, these were some of the kindest most giving people we have experienced in our married lives. Although they knew he had a different religious outlook, they hired him anyway. They went the extra mile in building a relationship with him and me! They threw us a baby shower-people we had never met before were buying our baby gifts! We were always invited to socials, included in fund-raisers, and I was even invited to teach Vacation Bible School! It was a fantastic, and eye-opening, experience for us.
Recently I watched my Sister-in-law experience what I learned so many years ago in High School. She felt the power of religion and was Baptized by her husband into the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. Watching her transformation, as well as my brother's, has been inspiring. I have observed her testimony begin as a small seed and then blossom to the most beautiful of flowers. Her light radiates to all who know her! It's incredible the way a person can change.
I've come full circle and have experienced religion on all sides. I've been the known and unknown, the hated and respected, the majority and minority, I've been mocked by my own, loved by others and vice versa. Religion is a sensitive thing. When it comes down to it-when I go to bed at night-I wonder if I've made a difference. Am I known for good?
I believe with my whole heart that I am striving to be the person God and Christ know I can be. I know I have an Eternal family and am grateful for the incredible blessings of the Temple that my family is currently and will be receiving in the future. I am trying to do what I know to be right. "I know who I am, I know God's plan, I'll follow him in faith...His truth I will proclaim!" I know that my Savior and Redeemer lives! He loves me, he pleads for me, he blesses me, he feeds me, he comforts me, he guides me, he calms me, he helps me. All of this I know because my Redeemer lives!
XOXO
Photos:
Christus, Temple Square- Salt Lake City, UT
Rexburg, Idaho Temple- Rexburg, ID
Angel Moroni from the Oquirrh Mountain Temple- South Jordan, UT
Salt Lake City Temple- SLC, UT
Houston Texas Temple- Spring, TX
Oquirrh Mtn. Tmple- South Jordan, UT
Christus, Temple Square- Salt Lake City, UT